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Okay, it's been a while. Things are...meh. Like usual, just more bullshit I guess. I pierced my lip. I did it myself, so obviously if people think it should come out properly they're obviously stupid.

So first off, beyond anything I feel so alone. I feel practically rejected by my so called friends...by almost everyone. And now second, ever since I pierced my lip, I've gotten quite a few rather rude comments >____> Things like, "You do know that it doesn't go there, right?" Uh, like, it's already pierced. You think it's gonna change now? I know I didn't pierce it properly, and in fact, I seen people with their lips pierced the way I have it. And I'm the one getting that it's not normal. And now I get the feeling every one of my 'friend' has been saying shit behind my back like that. Maybe this is why I stay in most of the time mom. 'Cause apparently even when I do nothing wrong, I for some reason do something for people to think me 'not fun' or not 'cool enough' to hang out with. Well fuck this then, I guess I'm never going to have a nice friend that would just appreciate me for me.

Oh whoopie...Easter. Nothing to happy about it this year. I decided it would be nice to take a bath, so I did. Then I decided to shave my legs, yet somehow I end up splitting it open. Not very pleasant. Nevertheless I didn't wash my hair properly, so it's still greasy-ish. Kristen wanted me to come with her 'cause she's too chicken shit to see the guy she likes ALONE, but then I told her I didn't want to. Especially since my day couldn't get worse if I just stayed in, which it kind of did.

So my mom decided we were going to have supper earlier, much earlier then usual, and she says, "Amy, can you please say grace?" She also knows fully well, I'm Athiest >___< style="font-style: italic;">again that I don't believe in God after she asks why not. Then she starts getting all defensive, "You sure as hell do. He's the one who made you!" I asked her why she couldn't just respect what I believe, and she replied why I couldn't respect her beliefs, and to just say grace. >___> That's a damn lie. I never ONCE told her otherwise that God doesn't exist, I never ONCE said anything offencive about her faith. But I've fucking had it. SHE'S SERIOUSLY SHOVING IT DOWN MY THROAT, "YOU BELIEVE IN HIM, HE MADE YOU, YOU MUST BELIEVE." LIKE HOLY FUCK LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.

Well, that's all I hade to say, thanks for understanding.
-Amy♥

Okay, so I have a few things to say, first I'll start with a major RANT on people who have no RESPECT and COMPASSION for the other people in the world who have problems as well.

SO I WAS ON KUPIKA ONE DAY. That one day I so happen to be sick, so I stayed home from school. AND ON POST. WHAT DO I SEE? People. Arguing about how 'their' lives are so shitty, and that no one else can be as depressed as they are. Are they seriously that fucking conceited? And since when was shunning people who have the same problems, who's depressed and cuts like you, because you're so self-centered that you actually tell them they're not as depressed as you, cool? Like, have you ever seen how bully victims come out? AND YOU DON'T SEE WHY THEY'RE DEPRESSED ALREADY. You fucking sons/daughters of bitches/bastards. You fucking DISGUST me. Even I have problems, and I don't say mine are bad, and yet I have penpals from all over the glob asking me how I ever survived from all the shit I've been through. Maybe think of the people who've been through WORSE, and don't utter a whisper of complaint, because they don't think they have a right to. Those kids in Africa, you think they asked for that? To starve, to have no home, for their parents to die so they have to take care of themselves, for no education, for no career, for no future? Women who are raised to be raped, abused, and to only be expected as a servant, to serve men. And have you ever thought of ever actually TRYING to make your life better? Instead of thinking it's the world that has to change for you. Well FYI, it ain't. Now I want you all to shut your fucking mouths, and grow the hell up.



SOOOO LIKE.
I'm freaking' hyper. If you can't tell ;D Oh dear god. Well, tomorrow is the 30hr famine. I raised money, donations are going toward kids and families in need in Africa. I'm basically starving myself for thirty hours. Wish me luck that I won't die. Lmao. Anywho, I also should really be packing. But I'm being a lazy ass at the moment. It's going to be a long weekend.

And it may end with a huge 7$ buffet. 'Cause we know the huge 'feast' on Saturday is going to suck. I guess I may try it, since I love my pasta, but according to my dear friend Jess, their Pasta sucks xP

Gimme Luck.
-Amy♥

Hm, I don't really know what to say. Yesterday I was very sick, I had the flu D; I think I got it from Jess, who passed it on to Lise, who passed it on to me. Ya fuckers xD Anywho. It's been a rather boring weekend other then that. I now officially hate throwing up. Too much of it yesterday. I literally cry like a baby 'cause of it. I couldn't even eat yesterday, it was that bad.

And for the past few days I've been pondering the word 'literally'. I don't know why. Sometimes I get confused, and say 'literallery'. Is that even a freakin' word? Does it mean the same thing? *goes to dictionary.com* Nope. xD

OH OH OH. And I'm officially dyeing my hair blond :D It's gonna be awesome. and if it doesn't happen, then I MAY be upset...D; Lemayooh. I just feel really blah at the moment.

Sooo yah.
-Amy♥

I feel like crap. It's almost as if I don't have friends anymore. I get the feeling that the ones I thought I had are talking bad about me, and they don't like me anymore. I think I'm just being paranoid, but fuck. It's like in my mind, I'm going insane. I don't want to deal with this bull shit anymore. I'd probably try to kill myself if I wasn't too lazy. Stupid reason, I know. I also get the random urge to dye my hair reaalllyyyy blond. Like, a platinum blond.
Like this.
The good part, she has the same eye colour and almost skin colour as mine, so it might actually work out. It may take a while to get to that shade though...But it's just for now. For all I know I'll change my mind. But yeah...
-Amy♥

I realize I haven't been on in so long. I thought I'd like to update, I think I'll start doing it more often. Well, things are better. Now I'm out most of the time with friends. I'm actually having fun for once and not being bored at the computer all the time. The only really bad thing is that I've come to a habit of smoking. Maybe it's because I've been craving them for months, and friends just happen to have them? It's only socially thank god, but I'm just worried it might get far. God I sound like such a hypocrite, and I'm the one who quite 'cause I thought my future life could be at risk. But I can't take it, people are always putting me under so much fucking stress.

But to go on...Last night. Scariest night of my life. Ghosts were chasing me and my friends. I SWEAR. We caught that whole thing on video too, and when we looked at it, I swear...you see SOMETHING. A light, but one that...wasn't supposed to be there. And it wasn't a lightpole. Especially since last night, when I tried to call my friend or her mom I think, it was a cell phone and sometimes a ring skips, so whatever...but it was just silent for a moment, maybe two. And then it sounded like someone was talking on a messed up walkie-talkie or something like that. It was weird, then just hung up.

So it's getting warmer in Montreal, Yaay! Enough for me to wear sweaters instead of bulky ugly jackets, thats fo sho. I can't wait for summer ;)

-Amy♥

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