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Okay, so I'm back on. I haven't written on here in soooo long. Well, on of my crushes is taken. By a girl I didn't really like to begin with, but oh well. Shit happens all the time. But I did cry. It really broke my heart when I heard him say those words...

Okay, so today was pretty good though. Well, it was average. And cold outside, which I now know to put a jacket on when I go outside in winter. xD Lmao. Some cool pictures were taken at school, and meh.

I realize I keep saying 'Okay' as a starter for paragraphs, my apology's. Oh, and my mom said we're not moving until like, after graduation. But I'm still kind annoyed :/ Blah. Okay, er bye.

-Amy♥


For now, I will not say it. I will not possibly say that things cannot get worse. Things keep coming up. I swear, I'll have some nervous breakdown soon, I swear it. I've lied to people. No, I'm not fine. I'm a fucking fuck up.

I'm going to court.
My mom wants to move to Ontario.
What more pressure can a 15 year old girl like me, be given?
Please. I'm just a kid.
I shouldn't have to worry about this stuff.
But no, I can't just live a normal life...


-Amy♥






Okay, here we go. I moved on. I don't like the boy I used to like, but for all I know I'll see him tomorrow and I'll like him all over again. But besides that point, I like two other boys. I started talking to them on a penpal site, Kupika.com, and GODDAMNIT. I like them. Both. I SWEAR TO GOD IF EITHER OF THEM SEE THIS I WILL CRY. >_< I'm horrible. I feel horrible. They've said things that make me realize they may be interested in me as well. What if it was to get serious? I wouldn't be able to choose. They're both so sweet...And nice. And UGH.

I swear, life, is complicated. There is always something wrong, unfortunately. ;-;

But in other words, the last few days have been...Good. Friday the 13th, I was kind of..happy. Even though a date for the movies got canned, I couldn't feel better. And on valentines day too. I was SPREADING ZE LOVE.<3 Bahaha. And today, I started my science project...Two paragraphs and now I don't know what to write. u__u Things are not going to end well.

-Amy♥


Hey tharr everyone.
Okay, so today was...MEH. I was a total bitch, for no apparent reason. I swear, mood swings suck. Funny thing is, I'M NOT EVEN ON MY PERIOD. LOL. No, life is just boring. So boring, it's annoying the shit out of me. SOMETHING MUST HAPPEN. Something hectic, something dramatic, something big. I must sound like such a fucking hypocrite, coming from the girl who usually HATES drama.

But really, I usually never act the way I did. I feel horrible, 'cause I got mad at people for no reason. I hated it even more when they got mad at me though. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, and I'm sorry for swearing so fucking much. I just have to let this out. I really need something exciting to happen, something crazy. Something different...Change.

-Amy♥




Hello there. Okay, so I did end up staying home. Awesome, eh? Kind of. I'm still as sick as yesterday, but I'm still going to school tomorrow. One day of missing school means a lot of work that I missed, and even if you weren't there, they'll say it's your fault for not doing homework.

So my day was pretty alright, relaxing. I woke up to my alarm clock, shut it off, and automatically decided to not go into school. I went back to bed, and woke up again at like, 9. I ate my usual Hot Dino Egg Cereal(best hot cereal EVER.), watched The Maury Show, then the Tyra Banks show. From there on, I just did random things, doodled in my binders, etc. Went on the computer, checked things out. Then later, for lunch (chicken nuggets and a salad), my mother told me I wasn't aloud to talk to my friends until 4. I was like, WTF? They wouldn't be on anyways. But I went on Kupika, because there is NO way I can't talk to no one. Goddamnit.

Now it's like, 5:48 PM, and mom's making dinner. Hawt Dawgs :B Oh yeah bby.
I've also been on Neopets all day long. God, even after years, I still love that site <3 :D

All in all, my day was okay, pretty content. Relaxing. Tomorrow; back to more drama. I swear, I might just kill one stupid mother fucker. >_> No joke. 'Cause apparently someone was talking shit about me behind my back, and calling me not so nice things. No, that's too violent. SILENT TREATEMENT. Bahaha xD

Okay, Bye.
-Amy♥


Okay, so I'm sick. All weekend I've felt horrible, though I'm gradually getting better by the day. It's just a common cold, thank goodness. Last night I just so happened to be up to watch this House episode, where the girl had the black plague. It didn't help that she had liver failure at the same time. But she lived in the end.

Good news is, I may not be going to school tomorrow. Good thing about it; I don't have to take my French test. YUUS. Because apparently somebody wishes me not to spread the 'disease'. Oh well. I really do wanna go to school though. Just kind of. For my friends. Everything else can suck monkey balls. Blarg. Really.

And if you haven't noticed, I spiffied up the place. Purdy, no? :D Well, at the moment it's some kid. But I'm going to change that, I want something super purdy. And maybe something more sophisticated. I'm actually looking for one as we speak. LOLZ. GODDAMNIT IT'S SO HARD.

Oh well, you'll see the new layout sooner or later.
Buh Bye.
-Amy♥


I've never really cared much about life itself. I used to ignore the adults who would say, "You're all the future" or something like that. I don't even think I knew what it meant, until I read The Chrysalids in my English class. We were assigned an essay, to write about a quote taken from the book...About how Life is Living, Living is Change, and Change is evolution. Is it possible, that maybe this help explains why adults and such are always saying how we control the future? Maybe. Would it make sense that we're the next generation, to make change, for something wrong to go right, or right to wrong? Life, seems like nothing but drama...And I used to complain there is either too much drama in my life, or not even enough.

I guess it all has to do with opinions though. Today, I was pretty content. I could've sworn my English teacher today was on something, but whatever. For once, I wasn't depressed, nor was I overly excited. I was just...alright. Nothing big. Just friends, hanging around, laid back, and just...living.

At the moment, I'm listening to music, playing on my god-forbidden neopets account. Such a childish thing, I know. But I can't help it :P If you're wondering, I'm listening to I Consume You by Rediscover. It's a cool song :B

Alright, well that's all I really have to say. See ya later, alligator.

-Amy♥

(P.S. the song just changed to Just Dance by Lady Gaga xD)

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